i guess that i don't feel as bad

i was thinking about saaid losing his job this morning while laying down in bed and about how he might turn to liquor because of the problems in his life (losing his job). i remember all of the pca's making remarks about how he would stink like liquor when he used to work here last year and how they said that he didn't stink like liquor anymore now. i'm thinking that he might turn to liquor, i really hope that he doesn't. i also noticed something.. all of the nice pca's that have got fired have been all males. coincidence.. i think not. one more thing, they have been pretty much all the pca's who i actually got along with and liked. todd, anthony, and saaid.. all of the nice pca's and the only pca's that i have ever got along with. we're stuck with all the fat females. i don't feel as bad about saaid losing his job because i just need to keep telling myself that i didn't have control over him losing his job and i'm not at fault. maybe this is better for him, he won't have to work around the other bitch pca's that work here now and he won't have to worry about doing things around the stupid nurse. i really hope that he finds a good job and doesn't turn to anything that could harm him. i did ask the pca who was working overnight last night for saaid's number and he said that he was going to give it to me but if anyone found out that he gave it to me, he could lose his job. well, it turns out that the overnight pca never ended up giving it to me.. whatta surprise, jackass.